MEM0RIES 0F FIRST DAY AT DMAE

THIS WAS BACK IN THE DAY WHEN DMAE WAS JUST A@E & DWIGHT M0RR0W. WHEN DM WAS THAT C0NCENTRATI0N CAMP ACR0SS THE WAY THAT N0 0NE WANTED T0 ACKN0WLEDGE, TALK AB0UT, 0R WALK 0VER T0. I WALKED INT0 A NEW SCH00L, IN A NEW T0WN, BUT I WASNT ANY DIFFERENT FR0M THE RASHARD FR0M TEANECK. I 0NLY HAD 0NE FRIEND WH0 HAD ALS0 SIGNED UP T0 PLAY A R0LE IN THE EXPERIMENT KN0WN AS A@E. D0MINIQUE WAS A FAMILIAR FACE & THATS WHERE 0UR RELATI0NSHIP ENDED. WH0 W0ULD HAVE TH0UGHT THAT RELATI0NSHIP W0ULD GR0W INT0 WHAT IT IS T0DAY. I SURE DIDN'T. SHE SURE DIDN'T.



I L00KED S0METHING LIKE THIS. MY SELF ESTEEM WAS LACKING, MY CL0SET WAS LACKING, & MY SENCE 0F SELF W0RTH WAS LACKING. I WAS A MESS. I HATED MIRR0RS, I HATED PE0PLE, I WAS BASICALLY A TR0LL.


THE FIRST DAY WAS S0 STRAINING. I C0ULDN'T HELP BUT THINK AS I WALKED FR0M CLASSR00M T0 CLASSR00M F0LL0WING MY C0MPLICATED SCHEDULE THAT I WASN'T EVER G0ING T0 BE ABLE T0 ADJUST T0 THE "HIGH SCH00L" STATE 0F MIND. MY TEACHERS VARIED IN PERSONALITIES BUT MY FAV0RITE WAS MS. MCGRATH. I D0NT KN0W WHY I LIKED HER I JUST DID. SCH00L ENDED & I WALKED T0 MY "AUNTS" H0USE SINCE I WAS LIVING WITH HER DURING MY FRESHMEN YEAR. I W0ULDN'T T0 DR0WN MYSELF IN THE TUB. WITH TIME I BEGAN T0 FEEL M0RE SECURE IN HIGH SCH00L, MADE S0ME FRIENDS, L0ST S0ME WEIGHT, & CHANGED MY STYLE. N0W I ACTUALLY CAN BE A TAD NARCISSISTIC.